The Fever from Hell is here and boy is it mad! It started last night coming on very slowly (a few hours) giving me chills, muscle and bone pain before the temperature actually went up. Right now my temp is running an average of 100.5, the Neuropathy is all over my body and very painful, I have some serious head pressure and sinus pain, when I blow my nose all I get are blood and clots. Each tap of my fingers on the keyboard right now feels like I am typing on a porcuipine. Appetite is strong, yet if I eat, I get full immediately. It's like starving yet eating makes you sick. Crazy stuff this chemo is!


The cardiac arrithmya hit me the other day pretty rough which was promptly fixed with a large dose of Pedialyte. I've spent most of my time either lying in bed or on the sofa with a LOT of blankets on. The cold sensitivity is so bad, intensified by the fever, I can't take the air on my skin. I've also been having a lot of weird pains in my lower back where they put in the epidermal when I had my colon surgery. I am hoping that there is no damage there but the pain is debilitating. There has also been a great deal of gastrointestinal distress (Thank God for Lomotil).


Anyway, enough of the negative stuff...tomorrow I go for my CBC and a Venofer infusion. The following Monday will be Round Seven! Then it should be five more rounds until I am finished. My doctors are very positive that all the cancer cells will be gone but, naturally, I have to remain skeptical. After all, they've been wrong so far each step of the way...I don't expect to see anything positive after the twelve rounds of chemo. My biggest fear is that they will tell me that the chemo did not work and I have to have more chemo. Either way, I'm NOT giving up!

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